Ok, today is Tuesday, but for my work week it is Friday....I love 4 x 10's. Sometimes it seems a little long....but it is worth it when Wednsday rolls around. My plans are simple, Wed. rest, Thurs see my boys, and Friday go to my doctors appointment....I know, sound like fun....I want to do something fun tomorrow though....So, how has your day been. Read any good news lately. I read MSNBC everyday, and that is way too much.....The conflict with Iraq is getting stale, I dont see the point in going to war with them, if Bush has cards he is holding, he better let us know before. That is all I have to say about that. Have a great day and I will write later.

My Megadeth and Anthrax days are back again. Takes me right back to when I was 13-17. Wow, on the way to work I was jammin out. Sleep last night was ok, woke up a couple times though. The alarm went off at 12:00am. Thought that was cute....I had to laugh. Cause I was sleeping pretty good, and then the alarm, but I still had 4 more hours!! It was like a bonus or something. Well, I plan to be with my kids later this week. I miss them. Even though I call all the time....it is nice to hear them and see them. Last night I watched "Surreal Tv" on WB20. Vince Neil is one of the participants. He totally surprised me with his mellowness and calm. I could see that he felt strangely out of place, then they asked him "What was the biggest brick in your life" His reply shocked me, the death of his 4 year old daughter 7 years ago. Tragic. I felt for him, and that made his mellowness all the more real and understandable. I will continue to watch on Sunday nights. Then I watched "Enterprise", the new "old" Star Trek. I have to say that the death of children that I have dealt with through the media lately has put a downere on my life. I just realized the "mortality" of my life a couple years ago, now I am realizing the "mortality" and "fragileness" of life. Important.

I saw a wonderfully horrific movie 2 nights ago. "The Pianist" by Polansky. Every few years we get another movie about the horrors on the Jewish community instigated by the Germans, and those unwilling to help. I left the movie feeling upset and angry and very sad. The graphical nature of the movie portrayed the horror of families being destroyed and the overall "cheapness" of life at that time and place...."The Pianist" was a top notch movie...but at what cost. War is never nice. We are quickly accelerating to a time of war....at what cost. What will be the cost to the civilians in Iraq?? I happily talked to my children the past two days. My oldest will be getting 2 new "Hardy Boys" books. I spoke with his mother and it seems appropriate because he loves to read. My middle boy, I need to spend some one on one time with. Wednsday or Thursday, I will go and give him his medical card and then hopefully get a few hours to build a lego truck or talk or whatever he wants to do. My youngest, I miss just because. He was going through it a little early this weekend, grumpy and yelling....I dont know what is bothering him....but I hope that it wont last forever. His mother is starting to date now, and I think that it is wonderful. I know how scary it must be, I know the changes that I made were very hard, and my heart was always involved. I just wish her well and hope that she goes slow....Slow and steady gets the job done...